I had been in a stable relationship for over 5 years, had a job many people envied, a close circle of friends and a generally nice lifestyle but somehow, i was not happy. In November 2009 everything came crushing down on me.
For a long time, I had not been satisfied with what i had, i didnt want more money or material things but i wanted something DEEPER. Something that was bigger than me, something that could stimulate my soul, something that was not conventional. Eventually this disatisfaction and not really knowing what it is i wanted started creating problems in my personal and professional life. I broke up with my boyfriend, quit my job and gave away all my belongings, remaining with only a suitcase with a few books and clothes in it.
I travelled to a few countries in Southern Africa before ending up in South Africa. During my travels, I met a lot of wonderful people who i learnt a lot and drew strength from. When i came to South Africa, I had a bit of money but no real plan of what i wanted to do with my life. I had arranged accommodation for only ONE week and had not made any solid plans beyond that week. I ended up staying for the World Cup and am still in South Africa, now working.
I dont think being in South Africa is what changed things for me. What really turned my life around is the fact that i learnt to be happy. I stopped waiting for things to happen before i could be happy, i stopped looking for happiness externally. I also learnt to laugh as well as to forgive myself. Nowadays it seems nothing can touch me, my happiness is so personal and far reaching yet so real its almost tangible.
Apart from the fact that i took a huge gamble and walked away from my life as i had known it for a long time, there really is nothing amazing about my story. I am very happy now and know that if i had not taken the drastic move i took, i would still be living a miserable and very unfulfilling life.
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